Radical Counselor

listen 
sbs is pretty much more positive
than anything you have ever seen.

this blog is pretty much more negative.

i doubt most of you understand this
and its implications
from any type of normal "self-help" standpoint
                                            (gay)

but that's not that important
yet.

i have thought about doing this for years 
but have been reluctant
for obvious reasons.
you do not need to read this blog. 
i absolutely mean that.  
sbs contains everything i have to offer.  
and i mean that, as silly as it might sound.  
for most people at least 
sbs is the only thing of interest
i have to give  
it works for anyone  
it's basic, and it is so good
because of that.
it was the nicest information
i ever got to share with all my friends- 
meaning everybody.  

this is not like that.   
this blog is for myself.  
i am not sharing much of anything substantive. 
of course things like this 
often have a funny way of working 
who wants to look at the pretty princess
when we could look at the car wreck
on the side of the road

listen 
i doubt i will ever produce anything of more value
than sbs.
it's the best self-help video i have seen.
i mean that.
and i'm not saying that because it's me who made it. 
im saying it because -
well, honestly
i can't think of a better self-help video.

if you are beginning to think this sounds cocky
and egomaniacal
good
you are beginning to catch the drift

this blog is not nice
it is fucking ego and piss.
it is not a four disc series that is clear
and to the point.

listen
sbs will change your fucking life.  
i'm not kidding.   
the blindfold is lifted.  
if we are not serious
we are not just happier, 
we are completely different people.

i guess a lot of people don't get that.

it's because they can't believe it. 
it's too obvious
it seems too good to be true.

but...it is true.   it's reality.

if you soak in the truth
really let it come over you
the ultimate gratification of life 
reveals itself
and you view the world
very differently 
than say
a person
        who is generally fearful 
        or worried
        when viewing what is around them.

that's why i can speak so confidently about sbs

because it's so obvious.

anybody could have made it
it's not like i'm special
or something was revealed to me
no,
i just said the obvious.

i am not fearful. 
  
sure
i may feel fearful
    and worried
      and scared
         and confused
sometimes....
      **maybe more often than you*****
but i don't let it bother me
at all. 

especially the last few years of my life
i am not serious about how i feel.
i take things lightly
and because of that the world is nice to me
this is not miraculous
this is common sense. 
this, ultimately, is just being logical and kind to yourself.

that is where i am coming from. 
and if you are not coming from a place similar to this
there is very little to say
except-
i am probably happier than you. 
or rather
i am happier than you. 
is that spelled out enough?
you aren't gonna feel all that good
unless you start being nice to yourself.
can you dig it?  
understand,
i essentially regard myself as
a piece of shit
but i am happier than you 
unless you give yourself some ample slack
and most adults
quite simply
don't.

give yourself some slack and you realize life....
is not that hard.  
at all.   
and most people 
are totally unaware of this.  
most adults act like morons the whole day.  
then, mercifully, they go to sleep for a while. 

so sbs is positve.  
sbs shows anybody - 
                                 anybody!
the easiness and simplicity of being happy. 
it is easy.   
it is not special 
i am not special 
it has nothing to do with me 
or you
anybody can do it
 
sbs is optimistic 
it is bright 
and it is true.

it is true
that is fucking importanteeeeee
it is true
unlike most shit
which is not true.

 this blog is the other side of the coin.
 it is the shit that is not true.
 
this is no coincidence.  
when you are not serious 
being dark 
or being negative 
does not bother you much.   
if you are positive
it's all good
if you are negative
it's all good.

this is us being negative
and not trying to explain ourselves at all.
even this preamble is not an explanation.
there is no need for explanations
when it comes to
           crazy wisdom

this should
rather easily
be the best self-help blog on the internet.
i think the main reason for this 
is because  
YOU WILL SEE WHAT A PIECE OF SHIT I AM
and then maybe
you will start to relax a little bit yourself.
******(a large aside: greater than 97.2% of spiritual/self-help/douchebag/religious/counselor/guru teachings are full of shit - you can learn more about life from your mailman.  i mean this.  i was reading something by the dalai lama today - it was a lame grade school moral bullshit 'teaching' that people are silly enough to take seriously because supposedly the man is a religious authority on 'inner-peace'...needless to say this blog falls within the 2.8% that is so bad that you will certainly learn something from it.) **** 

we don't have to be perfect
we don't have to be close to perfect  
we don't even have to be adequate
we just have to be nice to ourselves.
 
i say this because  
while i often might have an outward guise
of relaxed mirthfulness 
inwardly i am usually
a pretty brutal  
and highly negative person
people say bad things to me
and i smile inside   
my heart is black  
i breathe in death and feel at home   
i am never surprised, 
and i am constantly disgusted.   
i hate talking with most people 
and think that most adults are completely pathetic. 
i hate society and how it is run  
i loathe most intellectualism for being pointless drivel 
i have been utterly alienated from humanity
since i was a kid,
and it only gets worse with every passing year.  
i hear of murder, genocide and bombs 
and think, "of course..."  
i am not surprised by darkness and horror,
i see it everywhere.
 
yet i am well behaved. 
actually rather impeccable.  
i am polite, well meaning,
and treat those i am close to
with as much dignity and respect as i possibly can.   
i don't drink much or abuse drugs 
or engage in other forms of behavior 
that soft people  
deem as being "self-destructive."               
(it's not any more self-destructive than most things people do)
i am a mature grown up.  
i always have been. 
before i had my high school diploma 
i was completely grown up, 
i just had to modify a few external things along the way 
to fit each different situation accordingly.  
i always have been less judgmental than most,  
and that has allowed me to learn from people
that others could not stand  
or were scared of.   
the trick, of course,
was that i saw my mind
was just as bad as theirs
or worse....

the change for me in my adult life,
if you want to call it that, 
is when i stopped caring completely 
about learning.   
i realized, finally, 
that i was going to get no better than i was.  
i had always known this on a deep level
but a transformation overcame me 
when i acknowledged this on a superficial level. 
i found the superficial
had much more bearing
than most people gave it credit for.
all of a sudden i had nothing in common
with anyone.  
i was the most egotistical person in the room
and also the most kind.  
i was terribly optimistic and joyful
and could still be the more negative
than anyone
without effort.  

some people refer to this as self-actualization
i would say it is just not acting retarded.
 
in my late twenties
i finally learned fully that there was nothing to do. 
NOTHING. TO. DO.   
christ, allah and ahab be damned.  
i was full of such love, such joy,
such relaxed understanding....
that problems that used to bother me
seemed comically fantastic. 
i could finally hate whatever i wanted!  
i could say what i want,  
act how i wanted, 
and there would be no repercussions whatsoever. 
 
my behavior immediately became even more upstanding.
when people misbehaved it disgusted me even more.
but i didn't take it very seriously.  
of course, i would distance myself from such people, 
as i saw they had little to offer
except for a dumb kind of insanity.

i recently turned thirty and i am full of life  
a terrible person 
absolutely alive.  
if this blog has any value                       
                        (it shouldn't)
it is to let you know there is no need
to look elsewhere.
you are perfect where you are
you can't sink any lower.
it's time to celebrate.
if i can do it, anybody can.