Radical Counselor

i can't help think
that people are naive
when i watch them behave.
babies are more honest
and so are
wild beasts
so what does that say
about us
as grown ups?

fucking silly
chastising one another
the whole fucking day
and expecting it to work.

i'm chastising you right now.
see how stupid we are?
all i can really say is
                         i love you.

most people just can’t act normal,
can’t be calm and normal at the same time.

there is something wrong,
we should easily understand both sides of things
and we don't.

only when we get heated can we be harshly partisan.
instead,
when we are normal we are partisan
which is truly pathetic.

when i am calm and normal
                   (which is most of the time)
i try my best not to
be a fool.

when you are being normal
you can't be a fool and get away with it.
so few
people
know this.

it's complicated.
if it wasn't
there wouldn't be
so many
"problems"
the
   RIGHT
is
the
   LEFT
and the
LEFT IS THE RIGHT
unless we act
with clear heads
or at least
know
when we are acting with hot heads.

you come out where you went in

murder death sodomy ants
pigs
   none of it matters to me
you know how i stay lucid?
i don't think like a fucking fag
and i don't act like a dumbfuck old lady
i use my head
and i use my body
to make good choices
and i make the right choices
solid choices
because those choices
ARE FUCKING OBVIOUS
to someone who is not distracted
by bullshit.

BE A FUCKING GROWN UP.

act mature
and appreciate life.
if you can't appreciate life
YOU ARE A FAGGOT
or you just
NEED TO GET MORE NEGATIVE.

if you get negative enough
you won't worry about something as dumb
as appreciating your life
you will just forget all about that
and thru your overbearing negativity
you will feel good
and then one day
you might realize
   almost by mistake
holy cow,
i feel really fucking good.
so keep on bitchin.

i just say the same thing over and over
and that's cause i have nothing else to say.
why are you reading this?
i hope it's just for fun.
if you are looking for advice
just realize you don't need any.

so
like
we don't want to get messy.
obviously.

i understand this,
hell, i don't want to get messy.
i am probably more prim than you.

but sometimes it
is necessary.

and we cannot CENSOR
ourselves
when we need to
express what is on our minds
(you especially cannot censor yourself to yourself)

this is not being cruel
this is being honest.

i preach civility
but i preach it in an honest frame
and if we have to ramp it up
to be honest
and clear
then ramp it up

because that way your integrity shines through
and that is where you connect with yourself
and the other person
and the earth
and the big swans squawking in the lake

and if you need to slow down
and quiet down
to make your point

slow down.

being honest
just means being emotionally flexible.

usually we are more scared of becoming dirty
than actually being dirty.

fuck that shit.

jump in
be unkempt
be mean
just keep your integrity
and things will be good
for everyone

and if you think that's bullshit

fuck you
fuck you
fuck you

you have no idea what i'm talking about.
absolutely no idea
you fucking queer face.

i do fucking GROWN UP counseling.

start where others end.

it’s hard to go at it alone
and not be part of the group
and be out there
alone
that's what this is all about.

most people all of a sudden aren't
that tough
or impressive
when they are all alone
out there
with no back up
or group.

no group
no label and no band
to identify yourself as

no community
or people who share your opinions
no support
or decent intellectual discourse.

it's about walking
on this big blue earth
and appreciating it
for what it is
free of our ordinary conceit.

i love you i love you i love you
thats why i am writing so roughly

this is gonna be tough
tough love
but the important word here is love

i go on strike
when people act so dumb,
when they have every capacity to act smart,
and don't.
i dont wish to work with them
or deal with them
in regular ways

worse comes to worse
i will starve
for acting this way

is that so bad?

listen with your heart

most people lack honesty
towards themselves
and this pains them greatly
and scares them
and hurts their integrity.
a good way of living
is to feel through your emotions

and by that i mean
feel through all your emotions
and by that i mean feel through hate.
we don't need to deny hate.
we don't deny happiness, do we?
nah, so why should we deny hate?

i let hate in
i welcome it
and because of that
my behavior is pretty tame
just another lamb in the field.

but it wouldn't be this way
if i didn't let all that bad stuff in.
if i tried to protect myself against it
i would become a wolf
but i have no interest in that
because i am okay with my darkness
so i get to act like i act
and usually be delightfully retarded.
we harm as retaliation
for how we treat ourselves.

our job is basically
to be aware of the obvious.

this may make you laugh
but it's true.

it does not matter that we have delusions
as long as we are aware of them.

most people
    ARE NOT
        aware of their own fears
                 vanities desires sadness

but if you are cognizant
of this stuff
(and it's not hard, just acknowledge it)
everything becomes clear
and feels right
and you don't care particularly what happens next
and you may not feel great, or even feel calm
but you will know you are right
because there is no wool over your eyes
and no need to hide away from
what was in your face the whole time.

trust what you deeply feel is right.

that is what is obvious
even if most people want to stray from such truth.

translation--
just stop being fucking serious

it is trickery that keeps us involved
keeps us interested
when there really is nothing at all
to be tricked by.

there is nothing at stake.

when you realize that no one is smarter than you
or deserves anything anymore than you do
your life changes
and you settle down.

people are full of shit
just because they don't acknowledge
that nothing is really going on.

there is something very fundamental about all this.

and it makes it so that when you forget the obvious-
THAT THERE IS FUCKING NOTHING AT STAKE HERE
-it's not that big a deal.
relax and you will come to your senses
naturally.

so there's no need to judge people
all that harshly
somebody can be a motherfucking terrible person one day
and then be fine the next
as long as they wake up to the fact
THAT NOTHING MATTERS
             (and that is the best news possible)

we struggle cause we believe in things
                                             substantial
when nothing is really like that.

sure
   if you're hungry
   eat

and if you're cold
   get warm

but there is nothing behind these facts
no underlying principle that unifies the world
into right and wrong and into a
                     we must do this
                    or we are all fucked
                                      type of mentality.

that's all horseshit.

the best news possible
is that there is no news
ever
and we never learn a thing
because we don't have to.

that's why we hear phrases like
we are all god's children
just cause we are
and it's not worth making a fuss over
                                            necessarily
but we need to acknowledge it
somewhat
at least.

so,
personally to acknowledge
REALITY
i negate things.
i don't build things up
i cut them down
because therein lies the truth.
we fall back
into reality
and realize
          oh yes
            it was here the whole time.

now traditionally
words
and logic
can't do this that well.

so we cannot be too logical and
too wordy and still
effectively
NEGATE.

just negate.

that is crazy wisdom.
because we have to be alive to prove death
and we have to burn to prove the presence of water.

if you don't follow me
you are just thinking too hard.

listen
don't you understand that
i am
      shy?

i do not like being out there
i am a humble little fuck
and i like to be quiet

why there are videos like those below
is to show you
how fucking fun your life should be

don't act like an emotional retard
have fun

if you are not doing stuff
like the videos below
and you don't feel all that good
it's your own fucking fault

act stupid
act retarded
stop being serious
start being shit
and learn how to love yourself

it is easy
as fuck

you can do it
alone
or with people

just fawking do it

start where others end